i feel pathetic. i've got an ulcer, and mouth ache, and i'm hungry. yet i can't eat anything. thus i conclude that i can never be ano. like the feeling of hunger is simply unbearable.

somehow after completing most part of the sia, i suddenly feel that sias are atually quite ok. really. i dunno why. like after you do a lot, then suddenly it feels quite normal. haha i don't know why i feel this way.

omg and i feel really sad. like yesterday was the first day in 2009 that i visited my aunt's dog (buddy). and like previous years i used to go a lot of time. cause now dunno why when i see him i'll starting running a flu. so yesterday my mum drop by my aunt's house to get something. so i only got to visit buddy for less than five minutes.

and throughout that short span of time, buddy was like so excited to see me, and was sticking beside me, and giving me a toy, wanting me to play with him. but i couldn't cause i'm leaving already, and if i stayed longer i may run a flu again. and it's so sad lahs. when we left he was like giving us that very sad expression. and it really made me feel bad. this shows how loyal dogs are. haiss..

anyways my next goal: to do both front splits WITHOUT pain BY JULY! so i've 67 days left. haha dunno if i'll be able to achieve it. have to persevere and work hard! especially during trainings! :D