oh i forgot to blog about yesterday morning. first time coming to school late haha. the 67 was stuck in a huge jam even before arriving turf city, got stuck for about 30min! made me almost want to sleep while standing. then i thought i was so dead, and i saw yeewin! haha when we reached nygh the music already started playing. then we chionged up the stairs and took the pledge standing in the middle of the stairs haha. super fun! then i chionged to 202 and felt so malu. ><

history quiz was bad. haha. didn't know a lot! seriously. history blocks was ok, did well i suppose! and jiaying is so suprisingly pro! haha!

went to hci with shichun and ellen! had lots of fun trying to figure out how to get to the poolside cafe and eating and talking with them. sometimes i feel that _______are not really that important after all. talking to ellen and shichun was really a privilege. one of the few times i get to really express my real emotions. i can never do that in front of _______, i often feel like i'm being really fake.

4 by 100m was fun! i like 100m! cause it's like super short, and you can 拼命地跑! although my team didn't do well, but i'm happy with the experience!

had a really good chat with yy during lessons and breaks! and we slept together (now don't think sick) during recess! haha super cool kays! but it was kinda noisy at the end of recess, when everyone came back, especially when the table somehow magnifies the noise. i suddenly agree with yy, that _______ are not necessary you're closest, most trusting friends, they are more like for fun, for entertainment, to make you happy when you're bored. in my life, i suddenly realise that i don't really have a true friend. and remembering what claire said in her speech, that you'll find your best friends in secondary school, i really doubt that. seems like in secondary school, people are not as innocent as in primary school, they seem to have ulterior motives, and may sometimes even backstab you, and this is really freaky. i guess i've been a really untrusting person these days, it's really hard for me to trust someone, one wrong word/sentence will just make it hard for me to 're-trust' that person.

and it somehow seems like i'm closer to my batchmates than _______, although i don't see my batchmates as often as _______. sometimes i really feel like an outcast in 202, honestly. i've become more introverted and quiet these days, thinking and observing a lot, and i really hate to bottle things up. until today where i really had to let it out to someone, and it really worked! we had similar thoughts, agreeing each other, and that really makes me feel that, i may not be that alone in this world. and it's really great to know that someone thinks and feels the same way as you do. THANKS A LOT TO THAT SOMEONE! (you know who you are! ;D)

the person which you can confide in the best, may just be right next to you.