"hilary very wasted lehs, drop out like that." - qianyi.

wasted.
wasted?
am i really wasted?
did i choose the wrong path?
gosh someone please tell me.

malay was okay.. felt very sleepy during the whole of today gosh. pe was running five rounds. lucky there wasn't much sun, surprisingly five rounds was quite easy too! could even accelerate during the last round. felt pretty please with myself cause i have no stamina at all.

history.. watching the video. and gosh i didn't LKY's christian name is harry! and our sia was >< >< hope my geog sia will pull me up by quite a bit.

and about lang arts. gosh don't you have high hopes about getting my vote. and i sincerely wish you good luck for council elections. like wth lahs. i was seriously wth-ling her during lang arts. although it's a very small matter, but still it makes me really irritated with her.

math gosh that quiz. at this rate i'm going to FAIL ALL MY SUBJECTS AND GET KICKED OUT OF NANYANG OR SOMETHING. honestly. like everyone's catching up so well.. and i'm just going down down down.. it sucks to feel that way you know.

wushu.. damn relaxing lahs. i doubt i'll have any muscleache tomorrow. which is something i don't like. i rather have muscleache to feel a sense of accomplshment. and the freaking coach didn't do front split. AGAIN. and apparently he tried to moonwalk o.O didn't witness it though.

and huaimin is SO FREAKING SIMILAR to ling an. haha this reminds me of similarity and congruency. anyways, like apart from having the same hairstyle, the way they speak, and their personality are quite alike! that's why i felt very awkward when huaimin was teaching me jingsai. like she kept reminding me of ling an. and it somehow makes me feel like ling an is teaching me and that leads to the awkwardness lol. i didn't really dare to ask her for the moves i've forgotten, but actually she's very nice lahs. and funny. haha. i think just have to make myself think that she's NOT similar/congruent to ling an.

although the sentence you said seems short and simple, it somehow affects me in a way. (not really in a bad way) i get reminded of my decision, wondering if it was a correct or wrong one. i somehow feel a tinge of guilt. i really want to know what others feel about this, and how they feel about me, although i know that i may end up feeling worse, but i still want to know. i'm weird, aren't i?

i get constantly reminded of this fact, although i clearly know that i have no interest in it at all. in fact i sometimes dislike it. but i don't understand why i get this weird feeling when this comes out, reminding me again, making me wonder all over again. even though i know it's impossible to change path, i guess i'm just like that - always wondering if i've ever made the right choice.

i'm not wasted, am i?