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Saturday, August 8, 2009 @ 12:38 AM
i honestly cannot remember anything that happened before blocks.. shall attempt to recollect them. events during and after blocks will of course be more detailed.
25th july (sat): went to watch national science challenge with erm.. let me try to list out the names: wanqing, gin, hannah, melissa and others. haha it was quite fun. except the recording of the cheer was quite.. fake. like before the thing starts they recorded our cheers. so we have to clap and scream and make noise continuously for dunno how long, and slowly it seems very sian, and sounded like we were forced to cheer LOL. heh the results was... haha. but the studio damn cool lah. it's not big, but there's like so many wires here and there, and the lightings are o.O

it's not very clear though, cause i zoomed in all the way. we five were sitting on top, haha not the bottom seats, on top better lor, better view. and less chance of being caught on camera LOL! the lady in the middle is the host.
then after that melissa was like so 'love-sick' with wanqing? cause she indirectly helped to cool her sandwiches using her bare hands? LOL. and wanqing was like telling me her resistance to heat is very high. and turned out mel told this to almost everyone she knew about it when school started.
27th july (mon): haha went down to the canteen to give shumin and ling an a 'surprise' birthday party. gosh the mango fruit cake was damn filling. and gosh the presents! haha so cute! i think wulaoshi was quite fascinated by it LOL! pictures at iffy's blog! cause i didn't take photo of their presents.
28th july (tue): that math and science quiz. it was bleh. like bleh.
29th july: oh yes i only remember that chem quiz, where we have to draw this covalent bonding which is like impossible to draw lah. gosh i really am curious to know what's the answer. hopefully question is wrong hah!
oh and another thing! we had our duzhe for this year, then wulaoshi smsed me to help her take the duzhe. her sms damn funny, especially the last two words: "速带两个同学来拿读者。很重。" SO LOL LAH HAHA 很重! but she still managed to carry all thirty duzhe by herself to her office leh!
okay i think nothing much happened before blocks? oh yah except the fact that there's still cca. speaking about cca.. i think it was during the period where i finished learning my jingsai from xue! ^^ feel quite honoured to be thought by him.. i think continuously for like three or four ccas? like one to one somemore. but now different liaos he's concentrating on different people haha! which is better lah, later so stressed.
blocks-chinese: it was relatively okay i guess. i think i'll get average bah. i remember i really like the comprehension. i can't remember what it was about, i remember it's the first compre though.
history: heh that 45min provided was mad. scoring history almost seems like a test of how fast you write. and how fast you think and write. it gets to the point whereby you have to think faster than you write. and even write without looking at the paper and looking at the seconds hand on the clock to keep track of time. gosh. i shall be grateful that i've relatively fast writing speed, although it might be hard to read. after the paper i could practically feel blisters almost forming near my thumb gosh. and muscles suan like dunno what. eh and quanlity is more important than quantity okay! *hints hints*
math: i would say it's the only paper i'm happy with among all the rest. it was cool that i didn't get stuck at any questions, managed to breeze through it quite easily. and surprisingly even the last question. it's like usually ten percent chance of me being able to solve it? not sure if the answer is correct though.. haha. but at least managed to do it. ^^
lang arts: i really loved the given passage and the questions. juliet! and like i was so grateful that we are not being tested on like writer's technique. gosh i'll die at that those questions. i'll just start stoning lah. languages has always been my weakest subjects, as i've mentioned countless of times. i guess i'll do somewhere averagely for this paper.
geography: well.. i think it was okay. like okay in the sense that i'm able to complete the paper but don't know if my answers are like correct LOL. i feel neutral about geog.
physics: the paper i'm most disappointed in. like extremely okay. i know some people will just roll their eyes at this. but can't they at least realise that some people find certain subjects more important to them, and it's quite expected for them to have high expectations for that subject right? and i believe you yourself have a subject you'll naturally value more than the others. i honestly can't believe i've never made a link between kinetic energy and energy. okay the way i phrase it sounds stupid. nvm, i just feel terrible for physics paper.
amc: gosh i spent 1h15min cracking my head like some idiot. at the end can really feel a brain suan one lor! really! it always happen to me after math competitions like math olympiad. and i really envy some people that can complete in only 30min and sleep so sounds after that. i guess this is called being a genius.
oh yah then before amc and after physics everyone was practically slacking lah. i was watching iffy play her typing maniac. then at first i'm still higher than her for all time highest score lah. then she was going to beat me! haha then i went so crazy and mad and started covering parts of the computer screen so she couldn't see the words LOL! oh then i did something that made iffy typed but nothing came out HAHA! and she didn't know what i did until later! and she was so desperate! i feel so MEAN LOL! but i did that for only a few seconds lah! in the end she still beat my highest score in the end >< nvm.
thursday after school was watching of romeo and juliet~ haha! yueling and i were like counting how many kisses they were altogether. 17 i think in all. haha. and shumin was like covering her face at all those 'biting faces' scenes. yah you know what i mean. lol i can't belive she's so.... ermm.. sensitive? or immature? i can't think of a word to describe her. like she'll start squealing and cover her eyes and ask 'has it ended? has it ended?' OH YES! LIKE WATCHING SOME HORROR SHOW GOSH.
then went for wushu. gosh i think it's the first time we go for wushu together as A BATCH (except for seryeen who went different direction) SEC2BATCH09 <3 i think it's damn cool to enter rooftop hall together. it's like one gang. and not so malu to go by yourself, late somemore haha. there were like more than ten of us together? including two sec ones lol.
then training.. i really feel damn disappointed in myself okay. after knowing the news, it's really a privilege, but i start doubting my abilty. will i be able to keep up? will i end up being the one that pulls the whole team down? and that's actually a very high possiblity, like it's common sense. and like i can't even do my OWN stuffs properly, let alone this. i have always felt it's less burden to do this that my OWN stuffs, but now this perception has changed. especially since my abilities are like distinctively lousier.
like doing my own stufsf during training, the first time doing half of it was good i suppose, judging from people's reaction. but the possibility of me doing well it's like so small. it's because i'm very unstable. i either do damn well (occasionally) or damn lousy (most of the time). and when i had to do the full thing, i was practically trying to force myself. three quaters way through was already torturous for me. could feel stuffs in my stomach moving, and i was already panting, and felt quite out of strength. how am i going to ever complete the whole thing without feeling that tired? i really question myself. let alone being a burden to a team. i really don't wish to be one. so i guess i'll push myself, no matter what, to keep pushing until i drop. if not i'll forever be a burden. and the worse thing is people close to me.. their perspectives of me will change, to the worst. that's the scariest thing of all.
friday! national day celebration was awesome! i think what really made my day was the teachers going up to sing! especially ms teng who bravely started the ball rolling by singing ALONE. so brave okay. and she sings really well i must say. her voice is really rich and mellow, and it's SOLID for a singing voice. so cool to have such a sporting teacher. then the rest followed in groups haha. and ms sabrina with her MJ imitation pose i think haha! i think practically the whole sec two batch was like highing over all the teachers!
then after school took 852 to west mall. oh yes i couldn't post on thursday right after blocks CAUSE MY STUPID MOUSE WAS SCREWED. like it'll move where i want it to go. but the clicking got problem. sometimes i have to take many clicks to click something. if not it'll be like when i lift up the clicking thing, and move the mouse, the whole page just gets highlighted and i can't do any productive thing in front of the computer. so i was damn pissed on thursday and practically medidated in front of the screwed mouse.
so bought a mouse from harvey norman. it's quite pretty! greyish black and a bit shiny. i like it! ^^ then chionged with qiuhao, yueling and iffera to shop and save to get cheese for funfair. haha actually i was the one who chionged and the other three were like desperately trying to follow me haha. then went subway to dabao.
all three of them went my house. gosh when we were going to enter a lift in my condo, the lift door opened and a loud BURPING sound came out. i was like o.O i think i was standing in front of iffy qiuhao and yueling, cause i was leading the way mah. then i kinda o.O for a moment. and i think the angmoh guy kinda confirmed the direction of the lift or something? and he said sorry too lah. i just kept o.O all the way. and who knew when i got of the lift mad yueling started bursting into laughter. laugh until cannot see her eyes. and we three were like o.O apparently she felt that the burping sound was so amusing that she had to stifle her laughter in the lift and not look at angmoh guy who burped. gosh. mad yueling.
watched zuiquan while eating subway. i was so nice to give each of them a packet of cold milo you know! haha! okay anyways the movie is not bad ^^ the choreography was W-O-W. and gosh the trainings! i really don't mind receiving those trainings to be damn pro in wushu or something lah. but i think i'll most probably end up injuring myself or just giving up wushu completely LOL! then iffera played my piano, while qiuhao and yueling tried to use my computer. but it was quite laggy at first. then after that okay liao.
and yueling went to start a convo with jiale. imitating that she's me. haha. and jiale quite smart leh!

SO LOL RIGHT
oh then qiuhao iffy and yueling played my violin LOL. but it's too small. i played it when i was like P4/5 only okay! so the size is a bit too small. and it's a bit out of tune. cause i dunno how to tune my violin. i'm not pro enough to do that lah. but i still can play okay!! :D haha and was kinda teaching the other three to produce at least a nice violin sound. they seem so fascinated by the violin LOL!!
then dental. yay dentist cleaned my teeth! i love cleaning lah! feels so nice and refreshing haha. went for piano. gosh MY SCALES!! my teacher says my weakest part of exam may most probably be scales!! haishh! must play legato, and meet the required speed, and still crescendo and decrescendo a bit. aiyoo. still got less than two weeks. must jiayous hilary!
and my piano teacher so nice lah! she paid for my dinner. gosh i feel so paiseh lah. next time i eat with her for dinner must pay for her meal! don't care i must. if not i'll feel very bad. really. she's so nice lah!
oh yah i bought the hangers for wushu too haha! and carol says it's damn cheap! 20 hangers for $2.10 only! bought from the value dollar shop near bukit batok east community club. cheap huh? moreover it's not those wire kind. i hate those wire kind. haha. and the wire kind more expensive lor!
heh decided to pon tienhsia cause didn't fell like going. and my mum allowed me to pon, in fact she wanted me to pon. and even yueling thinks i should pon it too haha.
then just slacked my way through friday haha.
then just slacked my way through friday. ahh i must must
MUG PIANO during this long weekends. and BRUSH UP MY SCALES AND EVERYTHING TILL IT'S PERFECT. NO MATTER WHAT. NO EXCUSES HILARY. PIANO = PERFECT. no perfect, no piano standard. (okay what logic is this man)
tag replies: (oh man i have a lot of tag replies to do)
yueling [24 Jul 09, 20:51] OMFG LOL THAT TEACHER! his voice is really omg loud. OH YES THE IVP <3 haha ling an keep mentioning about it whenever she sees mr tan LOL! yeah shopping~ most prolly after eoys bah!! :D yes i'm satisfied with the super long tag LOL!
esther(: [24 Jul 09, 21:28] cause of joshua ang's mum! EH CAN LEH HAHA! i can't imagine shopping with you lol!
GIN:D [24 Jul 09, 21:55] hello my unpokeable-chemolmpiaddeskmate-genius-zeropacs-madfriend. LOL!!! haha!
shumin [24 Jul 09, 22:07] yah mann super long haha! eh i'm not ano already! RIGHT!! i eat already lor! i think i only can ano for a few days then cannot jianchi liao.
moony! [24 Jul 09, 22:15] i'm NOT! and now i stop counting liao haha! too lazy to count! HEH!
regine[24 Jul 09, 22:56] I STOP ALREADY!! HAPPY? can i be a human now???
yingying [24 Jul 09, 23:03] oh okay about the council thing... okay thanks for complimenting that my blog is funny. i never knew it was. i always thought it's damn boring to read. hmm..
viezcha cute [25 Jul 09, 12:58] err i would so very like to help you find your chun wu, but unfortunately i don't even know him you know! and i doubt he even knows me. so confessing your feelings for him through my tagbox is quite useless.. ain't it?
esther(: [25 Jul 09, 17:04] EH YOU FAT MEH?!?!?! HMPH!
ping ghee [25 Jul 09, 21:53] i'm not skinny! all my fats go to my legs. lol and i think you're the only person in the world who wants to be fatter!!
Shichun [25 Jul 09, 23:19] HAHA LOL POOING PROCESS! eh it's really nice to listen to songs and poo! and better still sing with it! it's really nice you should try it someday! haha! only when there's no one lah.. later peope think you're mad LOL!
*YI TING* [26 Jul 09, 00:30] YES I AM JEALOUS! ): haha i already tagged at your blog for your replies already~
hannah [26 Jul 09, 02:00] YAH PRECISELY! I WAS LAUGHING LIKE MAD READING THE SMS HEH. eh you cannot be ano lahh please! you're freaking thin GOSH!
yingying [26 Jul 09, 12:09] saw already.
yueling [26 Jul 09, 17:28] YAY ANOTHER PERSON WHO POOS AND LISTEN TO MUSIC OTHER THAN ME! ^^
*YI TING* [27 Jul 09, 21:44] LOL OMG OMG OMG HAHA!
regine [29 Jul 09, 22:54] omg lucky you tagged! i really forgot about it!
esther(: [30 Jul 09, 15:23] yah you always say that -.-
yingying [30 Jul 09, 22:04] oh okay you don't really have to announce to me you know..
YY [30 Jul 09, 23:12] YEAH!!! ^^ haha yay it's cute~ LOL! :D
regine [30 Jul 09, 23:33] yeah mann regine i agree with you about the senior junior thing! heh yay correct grammar too! i remembered to post! thanks to you! ^^
esther(: [31 Jul 09, 00:24] yay my profile ^^ haha! i like it too! it's better than last time, more organised!
denise [31 Jul 09, 02:21] oh okayy.. i went to your blog too. but it doesn't seem like you have the same bdae as me nor do you do wushu?! and why do i get so random tags (i'm asking myself this)
yueling [31 Jul 09, 21:03] KAMSA~ yay second person to say it's cute! ^^ heh finally posted LOL!
CherylChoo! ;D [31 Jul 09, 22:11] yah i'm that one! ^^ haha thanks and it's okay!
KF [1 Aug 09, 13:30] explained at your blog long time ago liao..
YY [1 Aug 09, 16:04] *nods head in agreement*
yingying [2 Aug 09, 16:04] no comments. -.-
yueling [2 Aug 09, 19:57] YEAH MANN!! ^^ same here~ yeap the compilations are nice! haha! thanks for the sorry sorry one btw~
esther(: [3 Aug 09, 17:45] err.. congratulations?!
esther (: [7 Aug 09, 00:18] oh how i wish i can ask it too! but i can't! how sad... aiyah i replaced the mouse already~ heh hope you like this damn long post too since you seem to look forward reading my post so much!
yueling [7 Aug 09, 14:39] yah yah yah.. i listened to your commands liao! HAPPY?! and i think it's by far the longest post i've ever done without copying or pasting anything from other websites okay!! and i replied to ALL TAGS gosh. i don't think you'll even bother reading this LOL!
regine [7 Aug 09, 23:40] hey! yah lol about lj. don't worry i'll stick to blogger. my blogger blog skin nicer! ^^