Blocks 1 over finally. (: Not that I feel that a huge burden is off my chest or anything (in fact I feel.. normal after today's Chinese paper, like it was any other normal practice paper), but I can finally have more rest and not having the bugging feeling of last minute mugging every night. I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP.

And so with blocks ending, comes the inevitable wushu national competitions. 5 more days, and 7 more days. And today marked the end of our official weekday trainings before our last wushu competition in Nanyang. The trainings after competitions will definitely feel very difference, since there's no aim or target to work towards anymore, and we're preparing to graduate wushu anytime soon. Gosh it just feels, too fast. To think that at the beginning of the year competition seems so far away, and now it's just, barely a week later. And it felt not long ago that I just became the vice captain, seriously. Darn scary how time literally flew past our very own eyes.

Was talking to moony on the way home and yes, it just felt like yesterday since our sec 3 jiti competitions were over and on the way back to Nanyang in the night we were planning how we should improve our jiti with all the zai moves - learn how to cekong, da ting, perfect xuanzi, add them to our taos. That was a year ago, how ambitious, full of hope we were then. But somehow all these hopes diminished, we didn't achieve them (obviously it's.. crazy unless we practice like mad everyday sinec last year), but I would say our jiti tao overall improved in terms of mo qi and the new formations and new moves. Still remember how we were saving each version of our jiti, naming them like documents eg "version 3.1". All the conflicts we had, not particularly big ones, but somehow when we do jiti we'll just throw aside all these conflicts and do the movements as one. One nanyang wushu batch'11.

Facing so many competitors (yet again) this year, we still bear that slight hope, that we will get something to do our batch proud. Seeing all other senior batches jiti getting at least one medal in their entire nanyang wushu experience, it made us even more determined to work for that something. It's amazing how we've changed really, from that blur sec ones, to the first jiti competition and first cny performance in sec two, another competition and more performances (hc maf!) in sec three, and now it's down to this.

We will aim for what we always wanted, but you know what, regardless of the results, let's enjoy the limelight we have when we 上场 on that very day, show what our batch is made of, and just enjoy what we might not experience in the future that very moment. Regardless of what we get, whether we end up high like never before, or break down in tears, we know we've put in our very best, that as a batch our performance was the best ever done, and that no matter what, we're all in this together.

14th April 2011, nanyang wushu batch'11, we'll show them all what we are made of.

Okay shall move on to my danxiang. It's amazing how watching the video of my tao for the first time this year made me so, zibei lol. Zibei to the extend that I got really pissed with myself, pissed with how my cudgel was not as fast as I expected, pissed with how I wasn't exactly stable, pissed that it didn't look like what I imagined. And somehow, that made my second tao, scary. HAHA. Literally! Whole batch sitting right next to the carpet watching me, and there's this part where I don't know why or how, but I started feeling really angsty and gave the I'm-gonna-kill-someone look when doing my tao! Batchies were shocked at how fierce I look like for the first time! Damn funny. (: Okay the main point is that I finally know how to prepare myself mentally before my turn! Be really pissed at myself, and 拼 no matter what. ^^ And I'm not aiming to get anything, really, it would feel nice if I do but I'm not expecting myself to get anything. What I really aim for, is to do the best 竞赛棍 tao I've ever done in my life, really enjoy the whole tao, and leave the carpet feeling satisfied with my performance regardless of the score.

Realised that sometimes, the small little things in life makes you so happy inside easily. Was really, really touched when Esther asked if my hamstring was still okay, cause it's been ages since I last heard that from anyone, and I thought my batchies forgot about it already (well quite expected cause I don't complain about it cause I'm so used to the pain whenever I do movements that it just becomes part of the moves heh). So yea, thanks a lot again Esther! :D (sidenote, bloody hell hamstring why are you acting up again!)

Sogurt with batchies after trainings was awesome. Though we lacked Seryeen aigo. I think I'll really really miss our batch after we graduate from nyws. Although sometimes our personalities might clash, but going through so many ups and downs, happiness and disappointments, there's somehow this bond inside of us. It's a weird bond luh, like sometimes it's there but sometimes it isn't haha.

“比赛就是为了与自己比赛，而不是与别人比。"