Hmm 2011 started on a rather down side I guess, became insecure, lost faith, trust, went to an all time low, times where smiles and laughter needed a considerable amount of effort, times where I almost let slip of close friendships, cause I was just too cooped up in my world. Well, I guess the saying of 'time heals all wounds' is rather true. Got back to myself thanks to awesome classmates, batchmates around me, found my happy, crazy, high self again. (: And yep from then on I think I matured quite a bit? In terms of thinking and stuffs, I'm no longer that childish, immature Hilary hahaha!

Academics were rather smooth-sailing for me I guess, ironically when Sec 4 should be the most hiong year. Didn't go through any particularly stressed-till-I-wanna-breakdown experience that year (unless I have forgotten lol). Moving on, non-acads stuffs, I still feel a tinge of regret for not contributing/doing enough for PSL and Wushu. Being a vice-captain of the team, I always felt inferior toward my fellow captain and vice-captain, hence forever being in the background, not-so-outspoken one during trainings. I  could never really give suggestions or whatnot for trainings cos I don't exactly have experience in these stuffs. Oh well in all I just felt really bad for feeling inferior yet I couldn't help myself remove that inferiority. :/ But NYWS camp made it a whole lot better, hehe still remember that fateful 1-2 hour in the morning planning the whole amazing race during that period, efficiency at its maximum! And that picture of us all crashing on the floor! :D Competitions, and performances were all our last as a jiti, and I'm really glad that we pulled through together as a batch, though there were ups and downs, yea I admit I was a big part of the downs HAHA, I never regret joining NYWS as my CCA in Nanyang and meeting these really unique, awesome batchmates. It's just indescribable, how we managed to forge this bond just through all the trainings we keep complaining about. (: Indiv competition that year was the year I saw myself really growing up, used to be terrified, fearful of competitions, can't remember whether it was Sec 3 or 4 when I actually broke down cause I didn't know if I should go for indiv haha! But yea I grew to see results as secondary, and the experience as primary, since after all, it would most probably be the last time I 上场-ed. 

Made many new friends that year too, the ones I remember best are mostly from 17slc facs and YAA. (: The experience was one unique one, from getting to know the true sides of some friends, to wearing court shoes and stockings for like 2-3 days straight haha, to going crazy dancing at hwachong in the evenings. Though I was only a facilitator, (and participant in 16slc), slc will always hold a special place in me. (: And it's really quite interesting to see the comparison between the people I was closest to in SLC, and the SLC peeps I actually still have close contacts with. Well, perhaps it's my fault for not reaching out to the first group. >.<

And finally, my dearest 408. I can never wish for a better class than this really, am very grateful for landing up in this class (after a series of complications in sec two haha), and to be honest, I think this class will be the best class I've ever had in my schooling history. (Unless my JC class proves me wrong LOL, which is quite hard to hahaha.) It's a class where there's really a huge mixture of different kinds of people, which makes the whole sec 4 experience an unforgettable one. How some will high when this particular teacher enters the class, how practically all the teachers love our class, how all of us are nearly quite comfortable with each other, how we can make all teachers smile and laugh, how we put up performances together (ARMOS, Graces, Teacher's Day Concert), how we ended up becoming like some mini gambling den during post-EOY period (and class chalet + ecp class outings), and how we became the Sec 4 Model Class of Year 2011. (: 

I would really like to thank this 3 particular classmates whom I've grown really attached to (I think you know yourselves, too shy to write your name here la HAHA, so name you all A, B and C) during this period of time. 

A, whom I never expected myself to be able to connect so well with her at the start of Sec 3, became that one person I confide in practically everything. (Though it's so hard to contact her through technology zzzz). I will definitely miss those times we could talk endlessly, how you keep talking about building muscles (HAHA), how we can just talk about everything and anything, sometimes even neglecting lessons completely (oops!). I'm glad I didn't lose this friendship (cause I nearly did), and despite us only meeting up once so far during this holiday (EEYER WHY ONCE ONLY T.T), we still could talk comfortably and endlessly ^^, I guess this is what people mean by really good friends. (: Sadly we'll most probably be parting ways in JC, haish, but I don't care must must must still catch up with each other okay! (Though I highly doubt she'll see this huge chunk of words meh LOL.) 

B and C, both whom I somehow got close to through everyday lunch breaks I guess? And C cause she's forever in front or beside me during morning flag-raising and assemblies bahaha. B is cause we somehow really think alike-ish, which is just cooool to the max~ Okay start with B first, first thing I have to tell you, YOUR LEGSSS AHHHHH! HAHAHA! XD I think you are really mature, which is cool cause usually most people our age aren't exactly that mature yet? Okay your mature is like I don't know how to describe mature, 总之 it's the cool mature! And continue being ever so chill~ and also having your own very strong, unique perspectives in stuffs. Your blogposts never fail to impress me with your depth of thinking, really. You should learn to voice out these povs more often! Seriously! Hehe like how we'll 'gang up' together to rebut Weihui's super pro-PAP perspectives during GE! And in the future if you need any help in anything, really feel free to ask me (haha still remember the pre-eoys days? (: ), AND MUST KEEP IN CONTACT RAWR ANOTHER DIFFERENT CLASS PERSON together with C too. Aishh why my A, B, C all going away so far from me. ): Okay C now, I LOVE YOUR EYES HAHA! Okay and I think you have a really awesome character, should really consider taking up some leadership role in JC really! You somehow have this ability to make people really comfortable around you, and just love being around you. (: I'll miss how we'll always make funny facial expressions to each other to communicate LOL. And those msn/fb chats I can really rant to you when needed and you'll give really sound advice HAHA! I think I must really learn from you, though I also don't really know how to go about learning haha! You're one unique person, preserve that uniqueness of yours when you go JC okay! Ahh will miss you and A and B so badly. ): Aish why did the 三八 days have to pass by so quickly. 

Yep I think this practically wraps up 2011 for me! 2012 has begun, but it hasn't really set in since school hasn't started, so I'm still in the holiday-don't-think-so-much-about-later mood now. So in a way I still feel like it's December holidays, with a slight tweak in the last digit of the year LOL. Haish JC, I'm looking forward to it, at the same time scared. Don't know what to expect, plus all the decision making process, it's really making me uncertain. Stuffs like b or p still haven't 搞定 till now, and my CCA choices are still rather open, oh wells, hopefully whatever decision I make will turn out well? Just like how they did in Nanyang. (: Speaking about Nanyang, entering it for about an hour during the first day of school yesterday felt nostalgic and rather sad. It still hasn't really set in that I won't be stepping into this school regularly, that I'll be passing by the Nanyang bus stop every morning and stopping at the stop after it instead. Nanyang, thank you for the beautiful, memorable 4 years you have given me, and how you've shaped me to who am I today. The Nanyang memories will always be in my heart. (: