Really can't believe holidays are ending soon. Once I leave on Xmas and come back one week later my holidays would have just vanished in a blinked of an eye. Anything achieved during this holidays? No. Nothing at all. Great huh?

It's scary to see people change so fast. Really. Not referring to one person here but people in general. I seriously admire some people's amazing drive and motivation to push themselves. Looking at myself, I'm like this blockhead wasting her time in front of the computer the whole day long. I find myself losing concentration more and more, losing focus, and worse still to the extend of losing hope. I don't know why myself. I tell myself to buck up, look at those other people way ahead of myself, and the next minute I'm like 'heck care lah'. At this rate I've no idea what will become of me.

Next year's commitments I have will be much fewer than some of my friends out there. I see many potential 'heck caring' periods in my future weekly schedule. I'm afraid that this cycle will just keep repeating. A whole year spent 'heck caring', and coming to the end realising it, and 'heck caring' again the next year.

I need to find that drive of mine I used to have back.
Wait, did I even have one in the first place?