First post of year 2010! Welcome 2010 then~ Even though it's a bit belated now. Entering Sec 3, I suddenly feel as if I've aged so much, previously I looked forward to growing another year older, but I'm starting to dread it now I've no idea why. I was telling my mum one day that I totally can't imagine myself being a 20 year old, which will happen in 5 years time. Though it might seem long, but it'll come scarily quick.

Shall talk about the first day of school.

I guess it was one of my toughest first day of school? P1 didn't seem very scary since parents were there for you, Sec One didn't seem that scary either since almost everyone didn't know each other, Sec Three.. gosh. This morning, it rained heavily, and the bus took a lot longer than it would be when there's no rain. I wasn't late fortunately, since I came pretty early. The heavier it rain, the longer the bus ride took, the faster my heart was palpitating while waiting for it to arrive Nanyang. Gosh.

Stepped into school, reminded myself again and again to go to my sec three class, and not 202. Stopped in my class abruptly, since it's the nearest class from the side gate of school. Felt really weird, really scared, and didn't dare to step in. Hanged around outside my class.. waved to people I know, saw that bunch and avoided them, I think some people had to help me step into my class. LOL. Cause I was too scared to step in. Haha.

Put my bag somewhere near the centre of the class, looked around, nobody, awkward feeling, went out to walk around. Saw people walking around in cliques and cca batches. Ping Ghee dragged me to meet Callie. Okay I totally didn't know I was so shy gosh. She kinda asked me, or asked her to sit with me. Which didn't happen in the end cause both of us were rather.. shy? I don't know? And then the 212 people just started talking among themselves and I kinda left. For PSL stuffs.

Took 101 for PSL, was kinda sad I didn't get 102. AND IFFERA'S SISTER, ROYANNE IS THERE! SO COOL LAH!! Brought them to class after pledge taking, help to carry one whole big box of stuffs for them to their class. Was dismissed after that.

Attendace taking, temperature taking, the usual stuffs. Did one super malu thing. Gosh. Cause they were passing down the class list for us to write which countries we've been to. And when I saw the paper again and noticed that mine was unfilled, I felt rather weird cause I thought I wrote before, but wrote down anyway. And then I realised that I've writted in the index number 7 space at first, and my index number isn't 7 anymore. Gosh so malu lah. And the teacher was asking the class who wrote twice. OH GOSH SO MALU!

I'm 15 this year and my index number is 15! Okay random...

Ice breakers game was kinda interesting, and oh dear there's only 10 sports cca people in my class. And a whole lot of performing arts one. Imagine during the SYF period, how empty the class would be. LOL. 202 was the exact opposite, a whole bunch of sports cca people, and not that many performing arts one.

Rather surprised at something. And quite shocked too. You can ask me what it is, and I'll tell you if I'm close enough to you! Heh! ^^

2 China PRCs in our class, and gosh their Chinese was OMFG BRILLIANT. Their accent was quite cool too! 36 people in 308, gosh that's one big class, I kinda miss the having 30 people in the class instead. Bigger the merrier... I hope? The teachers was telling us that the 2 China PRCs not to sit together so they can bond more with us, and asked Zou Yan (temporary monitress) to find 2 English super pro people.

Then during spring cleaning Zou Yan came up to me and was like (translated from chinese), your English is really good right? Can you sit next to the China students? And I was like... nono omg, I got like A2, and LA is my worst subject. Then she went on saying I look like someone from Debate! LOL?

HOW IN THE WORLD DO I LOOK LIKE A DEBATER? GOSH!
(Should i feel insulted or honoured? The former I hope)

Then I think I got quite agitated? Or something? And was like telling her no I don't want to sit with them! Haha. I hope it didn't scare her or something!

Recess, brought 101 to canteen. School tour and PSS after that. School Tour was okay, hope they weren't bored. PSS... bingo was quite successful! Judging by how all of them participated quite actively! And guess what? Nobody could fill all the blanks cause nobody had a pink pencil case! (which is one of the requirements in the Bingo paper). Asked the Sec 2s to brief them about illegal stuffs. My PSL group is nice! Really appreciated how cooperative the Sec 2s were! ^^

Left during lunch, went into Auditorium for NYAA briefing with the rest of the Sec 3 PSLs in my group. Oh gosh so malu lah. My seat was somewhere in front and the middle column. And I had to walk quite a long distance, morever the auditorium was so deathly silent when the speaker wasn't speaking. And I was trying to move as fast as I could, yet making the least noise. (It's impossible.) When I got to my seat, was kinda shocked cause the seats beside me were all empty. Well almost.

CCA exhibition next! Quite okay I guess. Kinda briefly learnt through the new jiti moves! YAY! It's quite cool! But like what wanqing mentioned, we should focus more on the 整齐. That must be something we work on! I'm really going to be 101% commmited for jiti, and I hope everyone will be too! We cannot slack too much during jiti practice!

Carol came! xD She told me beforehand though haha! THANKS A LOT CAROL FOR THE GIRAFFE (or is it a horse?) HANDPHONE HOLDER! It's now on the table beside my bed, cause I put my handphone beside my bed when I'm sleeping! ^^ LOVE IT A LOT!

Oh yes and YANYING! THANKS A LOT TOO FOR THAT 2PM NOTEPAD! REALLY LOVE IT A LOT! HAHA! Though I think I'll be very reluctant to use the paper inside! xD It's all the way from Korea, I'll treasure it lots!

Talked quite a lot to batchies, realised stuffs I've never thought could have happened, poured out stuffs troubling me though it's quite minor. Sorry Wanqing if I'm made you feel bad about MSTP! Aiyah you deserve it lah! ^^ Hope you be happy in MSTP and treasure the programme! Must enjoy it hor else I'll regret even more. Haha!

Choosing BSP instead of only MSTP might just be fate I guess. Not being less shy, answering that fateful question, might also be fate too. Maybe it'll be better for me, or maybe it'll make me regret even more. I've no idea which it will be. Well I hope I won't dwell on it too much in the future, it's over, reversing it back is almsot impossible, might as well just look ahead instead of looking back.

I really feel very bad towards that person. Not sure if she'll read my blog, and I'm not sure even if she does she'll know I'm referring to her. I really didn't know she was waiting for me to ask, cause I assumed she had plans already. I guess I just missed another chance of knowing someone new, just letting that chance slip by my fingers. I'm all 'If only that didn't happen.. this will happen' now. The only possible last hope is if the teacher decides to arrange us by height I guess. (That's what 309 did I think).

Personally I would much prefer if the teacher will rearrange us, though it might seem too primary school-ish. We'll get to know new people a lot better this way, and people won't be too clique-ish too. xD

Okay I shall do my new year's resolution now then, though usually it'll never succeed by the end of this year.

1) Be a nicer person, notice and understand others feelings more easily.
2) Self-discipline
3) Push myself to the limit in everything I do. Give 101% commitment in them.
4) Be able to do man pull-ups.
5) Be able to do the other 2 variations of split.
6) Practice piano at least once a day and have a significance improvement in it.
7) Be more attentive in class, and not start daydreaming about other things. (Yes this is quite lol I know, cause seriously I do think of other stuffs during boring lessons, or maybe start playing a korean song in my head)
8) Be more hardworking (Yes I'm going to openly say this, cause I really can't stand how much I've deteriorated in Sec 2 thanks to my lack of self-discipline due to Kpop. Kpop is not to blame, I'm the one to be blamed.)

Yup shall stop here, not much really.

2010, is a year I really want to push myself to the max. I have to. I must.